Monday, 13 April 2015

What I mean when I say "I love you"

I forgive you for all the things you have done, or will do, that may hurt me. I forgive the way you lash out when you are frustrated with yourself or your tech. I forgive the things you may say when you're tired after a long day. I forgive your big mistakes and the small ones. I forgive you when you fall short, because I see how hard you are trying. I forgive you the way I hope you'll forgive me because I know neither of us are perfect.

I'll sacrifice my time for you. I'll be selfless for you. I'll stay up late with you if you dream of bugs, even though we both have work in the morning. I'll take care of you when you're sick. When you are weak, I will be your strength. I'll be there for you at 3am as readily as I would at 7pm. I'll be there when no one else is, and I'll be there 100%. In sickness and in health, my willingness to be there won't change. My sacrifice is not dependent on your state of being, but rather it is there because you exist and you are someone worth sacrificing for.

I respect you for who you are. I respect you because you deserve my respect. I'll respect your opinions and consider your feelings. I'll treat you like a person remembering always that you have your own thoughts, hopes, dreams and desires. And those thoughts, hopes, dreams, and desires will matter to me the way they matter to you.

I'll support your hopes and your dreams. I will always have your back. You can rely on me. I'll raise you up and never tear you down. I'll always try to make sure you have what you need, physically, emotionally, and mentally. I'll lift you back up when you fall.

I'll protect you from physical harm. I'll protect your heart from pain as much as I can. I'll protect the idea of us. I won't demean you. I'll treasure you and shield you from those who would harm you. I won't let others put you down. You will be safe in my arms, safe in my hands, and safe in my heart. I'll be your safe haven, your safety net, and someone you can always trust.

I am committed to you. I won't leave you. I will be here for you again and again. I'll make this relationship a priority in my life. I'll look back on our beginning, I'll work on our now, and I'll look forward to our future because we are something that I want to last forever.

Best Easter Ever!

It was already one of the best Easter's because I didn't have to eat a single hard boiled egg. I was working 8-4 Friday and 9-5 Saturday (with Sunday and Monday off) so I didn't have a long weekend off like a lot of people but I certainly made the most of the time available.

Friday after work I went over to Hugslut's house for couch snuggles and DoctorWho.
Saturday, Bard picked me up at work and whisked me away to a romantic night staying over at his place. It was our first time truly alone, with no one else in the house, in a long time. In the morning we had a nice lazy snuggle in bed before having breakfast and heading over to Hugslut's place for Dungeons and Dragons.

Bard, Hugslut, Wolfie, and I play every Sunday from noon til 5. After D&D, Hugslut and I drove Wolfie home then settled in for some pizza and more DoctorWho.

On Monday Hugslut had a migraine so I popped by to see if there was anything she needed around supper time. She was feeling a lot better by then so we had dinner together and watched an episode of Supernatural. When she asked if I wanted to watch another I told her I had written something for our anniversary but I didn't want to save it to read on our anniversary in May since saving joy for arbitrary dates is really not us. She agreed so I read it to her.

I'll post it separately but it was titled "What I Mean When I Say I Love You", and at the end, I asked her to marry me.

She Said Yes! I'm still spinning. I am so happy that we are going to be planning our future together.
We have no clue as to when or anything like that. We're still discussing if either of us are going to change our names. I want to thank our friends and family for their warm support, and I'll be sure to keep you all updated.

Sunday, 12 April 2015

First Day on Fitbit

So I've been tracking my food for a bit and recording when ever I'd walk somewhere like to the store or work... I even recorded the small amounts of calories burned by wandering around a store at a slow pace for an hour... turns out the app was assuming that other than what I recorded, I was just laying comatose on the floor.

Today is Sunday.  D&D day. Junkfood day. It's also the first 24 hours I've worn a Fitbit ChargeHR instead of recording the above and beyond baseline.

I did so very little today (nothing I'd see fit to write down) and as you can see, the food calorie count was still fairly high... but the calories burned skyrocketed above any other day.

Monday is my day off so that will be hard to gauge but I can't wait to see what walking home from work does to those numbers Tuesday.

Now I see why I had low blood sugar headaches when I tried to cut down on my calories.  I was already eating at or below level.

I'll keep you updated.